dazigurl_88 (dazigurl_88) wrote in pastel_embers,
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♥ Hopeless love please leave me
This broken heart is far to weak -hopeless love- Daphne Loves Derby

♥ I guess I'll learn to live with
A different kind of pain
I'm suffering from a sickness
That I cannot give a name
Such a strange sensation
I've never felt before
Missing you has cut me to the core

♥ Show me where it hurts.
Show me what love's done to you.-cauterize

♥ You see me, the real me
No in bewteens, I had nowhere to hide
You took away the walls around me
Made me feel safe to share my truth

♥ When I think about rain
I think about singing
When I think about singing
It's a heavenly tune
When I think about heaven then
I think about angels
When I think about angels
I think about you

♥ I began to wonder if it would be easier with you gone from my life. Then I realized that I never wanted to know if that was true...but now I don't have to wonder anymore and I hate it.

♥ She keeps them all to herself; all in her head
They almost seem like pages of thoughts just
scattered throughout her brain
And so what if she dosen`t tell others?
They are hers to keep
They are her stories, filled with memories
from her life
And even if it`s not organized it`s her way
to keep everything together

♥ You are all this to me - Melissa Collette
You're the thought that starts each morning,
the conclusion to each day.
you are in all that i do,
and everything i say.

you're the smile on my face,
the twinkle in my eye.
the warmth inside my heart,
the fullness in my life.

you're the hand thats laced in mine,
and the coat upon my back.
my friend, my love,
my shoulder to lean on.

you're my silly, mature, caring,
thoughtful, bright and honest guy.
the one who holds me tightly,
when i need to cry.

you're the dimple on my cheek,
the everconsistant tingle in my soul.
the voice that makes me weak,
the happiness of my life.

you're all i've wanted,
you are all i need.
you are all ive dreamed of,
you are all this to me.


♥ Sorrows Underneath - Zihanna Rahman

I think of all my problems
i think of all my pain
i think of all my sorrows,
until i go insane.

i think of all the smiles i've worn,
which hide sorrows underneath
no one seems to notice
that i go through so much grief.

my tears seem to keep flowing,
inside my tired eyes.
each time i want to tell you
my words come out as lies.

these days im feeling distant,
far away and weak.
my sadness pulls me further,
from happiness i seek.

ive just began to realize,
that my hopes and dreams are gone,
im walking down a dead-end road,
humming a tuneless song.

im standing on a roof-top,
although i am scared of heights,
im watching the cars beneath me move,
and somehow this doesnt feel right.

now i think of what im doing
i know i should find a way.
to beat my depression
will i be able to someday?

someone might be there,
to help me make it through,
maybe they will listen,
and tell me what to do.

im seeing through the darkness,
and im starting to trust a few,
i think ill try to make it,
so i can be there for them, too.


♥ Inside - Melissa Collette

Bottled up inside
are the words i never said,
the feelings that i hid,
the lines you never read.

you can see it in my eyes,
read it on my face.
trapped inside are lies,
of the past i cant replace.

with memories that linger -
wont seem to go away.
why cant i be happier?
today's a brand new day.

yesterdays are over,
even though the hurtings not.
nothing lasts forever,
i must cherish what ive got.

dont take my love for granted,
dor soon it will be gone -
all you ever wanted
of the love you thought youd won.

the hurt im feeling now,
wont disappear overnight,
but somehow, someway,
everything will turn out all right.

no more wishing for the past.
it wasnt meant to be,
it didnt seem to last,
so i have to set him free.


♥ and our midnight conversations? yeah i miss them... they still mean everything to me <3

♥ love is the answer.
at least for most of the questions in my heart.

♥ I didn't understand then ... That a person can, just by living, damage another human being beyond repair.

♥ There's nothing you can do about the past. But, you can do a great deal about your future. You don't have to be the same person you were yesterday. You can make changes in your life -- absolutely startling changes -- in a fairly short time. You can make changes you can't even conceive of now, if you give yourself a chance.


♥ you think you know me. but do you really? Even if you spend lots of time with me, chances are, you don’t. you don’t know whats really running through my mind when you talk to me or what I do when I’m home alone. Maybe I’m thinking about being in your arms. Maybe I’m wishing we were never friends. You don’t know the millions of emotions you could be causing me. I could be in love with you, in lust with you, or hating your guts at this very moment. i might have problems of my own; maybe I’m breaking down inside while you waste your time trying to make your problems my own. Maybe they are my own, because maybe I really don’t have any life other than you see. You can call me slow, but you will never know what is really going on inside my head. My mind could be so complicated and full of life that I simply don’t have time to process what you are saying. Really I'm a very smart girl; you just can’t see that. maybe even smarter than you’ll ever be. or maybe I actually am stupid; and it will take me twice as much work to get somewhere that you could be with little or no effort. But who would it be more worthwhile for? I appear to be happy go lucky most of the time, but what if I’m not? What if deep down, I worry? Maybe I have more feelings than you would know what to do with if you were in my shoes; more emotions than just love and happiness. Or maybe they’re all I’m capable of. i might be wishing at this very moment that I were someone else, someone more beautiful and fun, just to get your attention. Or maybe I’m truly happy with who I am and I just want you to see me differently? I don’t necessarily like the way you judge me; no matter what you’ve heard, you don’t know if I’m a bitch or not ‘til we’ve really met and talked. I promise I’m a nice person. Or maybe the rumors are true; that I’m full of shit and it flies out of my mouth nonstop. You don’t know that yet. honestly, if you push me, I can be the biggest bitch you will ever meet. Maybe it’s because I think I’m too good for you. Or maybe it’s because I know I’m not and I want to prevent you from putting me down, because I’m so vulnerable to it. Deep down I’m really very insecure. I know who I am, yes, but I don’t want you to find out. Or maybe I’m in love with myself and I don’t care if you are or not. But are you? ask yourself that before you make me think so; I just might want you to be a part of my life. I hope that’s not too much to ask; I hope I’m good enough for you. or I could be thinking that I am too good for you. + just so you know, I might push you away. For my own good— I want to see if you love me enough to come back, and I will especially do this when I need you the most. Because maybe I’ve been hurt before, and I put walls up just to see if you will break them down. You think you’d be there for me. but when I need you the most you might not know it, but a good friend would. If you’re not up to that, don’t try to become a part of my life. You just might hurt me. do you even know what it takes to make my day? Maybe I’m the kind of girl where a genuine “I love you,” a long hug, or sincere compliment will do the trick. Other times it will take more- all of the affection you have to give me. I hope I’m worth it to you; because if I need that from you, know that I’d be yours in a second. Do you know that I’d do anything for you? would I? Maybe I’m hard to read; acting like I love you doesn’t necessarily mean I do. but if you take the time to figure that out; most likely; your one of the few I take strongly to. and don’t you know it, when I really like someone, I get attached to them very easily. Maybe you’re one of the people I need the most. I might think about you nonstop; or losing you could be my biggest fear. You might not realize how I only light up when I’m around you, the look in my eyes when you talk to me, or the way I collapse into you when you give me a hug. I could be waiting for a phone call or IM from you constantly, or a sincere “I love you.” but maybe I hope we grow apart- regardless of how much fun we have had together, I need to move on from you. because maybe you cause me so much constant pain that the bad times outweigh the good ones. Maybe I’m scared to approach you, despite all the fun we have together when you finally talk to me. you can choose to love me, hate me, despise the very thought of me, whatever. I wish I could say that I don’t care, but for some people, I do. especially you. the truth is, all other things aside, I’m longing to be yours forever or at least mean something to you right now and you don’t see it. No matter what happens, who I grow up to be, or what you end up doing is completely irrelevant- our past has made me so emotionally attached to you that the thought of living without you is impossible to bear. And honestly, that’s all you need to know.

♥ It`s crazy when you think you actually
mean something to someone and then
they just turn around & prove you wrong

♥ i can't believe you had the nerve to say
the things you said they hurt so bad that they
ended our relationship

♥ This is why I didnt want to fall again. I didn't want another dissapointment, I didn't want to get my hopes up, I didn't want to cry, I didn't want to lie, but it looks like I've fallen again. I've fallen for you, and the only problem is you won't ever feel the same way, but even still you're the thing I think about eachh day...you're the thought that keeps me going but I don't want to get hurt again..


♥ i bet you don't know how much i care... ♥

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